Hurt? I'm Unsure Of My Feelings...
Thursday, April 03, 2008 @ 5:37 pm
" Every Start Always Has Its Ending..." Some of my friends used to say this phrase everytime. I didn't use to belive in that phrase until juz now... Everything ' Ended' abruptly that i didn't have a chance to think twice before acting and replying everything. Shocked... sad... and much more feelings involved. It was as if like it was ytd that we were actually close but now, everything just ended and goes down the drain. But, guess there's a hidden msg behind all of this. Maybe, we were not meant to be close like bfr after all. Which is sad huh? All the Sacrifises that we made, all the Smiles, Joys, Laughter, Tears and Fights That we went thru together all burnt to memories now...There's a lot of things that i wanted to tell her since the start of the year, but there's not always the right moment to do so... I shud have set things right bfr things turn bad... But, i guess it's too late...I'm sry for ignoring you and all but I got my own reasons to doing that which i've not got the chance to explain so...Well, nevertheless, evnthou it's quite sad, life have to move on. There's no use stopping halfway cz that's life. We just have to face Everything and move on. Stopping just means failure and failure just means that i'm a loser cz i didn't take the effort to recover, learn and move on from my failure.Well, thanks for the Old Tymes that i just can't frgt. It's just too precious. No one ever influenced and motivate me like the way you did... It's just to precious to be thrown away. Well, i Truly thank God to give me the chance to make me close to her and make me love someone with all my heart. Evnthou i cud not stand to lose someone wonderful like her, but i guess, things have to change and i have to move on. Sumtymes i wonder, Why Now? and Not later? But i guess this is what you call fate and i believe in it.Well, if There's a room for change, i'll grab it first before anyone grab it first. Well, if You happen to read this one day, i just Want you to noe that i'm reali reali reali sorry and i reali reali reali regret wht i've done. And, i want you to know that i also love you and i hate losing you. And if it possible, I want us to be close again like before... I would do anything, just anything to at least see you smiling at me again and geet your hug once more.The Truth Always Hurt, But, i have To Accept It... One Day, I Will Drown In My Own Misery And Sadness Myself...I Will Always Love You No Matter What...
