Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 3:49 pm
Sorry, long tyme no blog... Last 2 weeks, I was on Holiday. Went to Melaka to visit my cousins there. Omg, I miss them mann. I miss their smiles and laughters and jokes. Okay, maybe it may be random but hey, I can only see them once in a while okay, and it's not like I could see them every year cz can only see them if I go to Melaka for holiday. I just love the life there. It's a kampung kinda life, only that it's a bit modern lah. But, it's a nice place for me to relax my mind and hahaha, I love to see my cousin's cat chasing the chickens and the baby chicks. It's kinda funny. I hate cats actually, except for this one. The cat is very well-behaved and damn cute that I can't resists petting the cat everytime it walks past. Went shopping at this place called Nilai 3 and okaylah, not bad, except that it's warm and made me sweat. But, I don't stink k... Hahaha. I quite forget a lot of things that I did there cz I didn't update my personal diary. Okay, in summary, I Love spending time with my cousins there and I so love the atmosphere, especially in the morning. The morning breeze is so different from Spore. Spore's air is like a bit polluted but, not to say that the air there is not polluted, but, you can feel the freshness of it. I hope that I can go there again maybe during this year's November or December hols. I just miss them!
Okay, so moving on with life in Spore... Went studying in school with Juli last 2 weeks to do Math. I only do halfway and both of us stop with our work. Doing Math for 2 Hrs plus is tiring mann. Went to eat at KFC and after that went home. That's all I could remember for what I did last two weeks cz mostly I'm stuck at home and spending my holidays reading my storybooks and sleeping like a pig... Haha. If not, I would be in school with the SJAB training.
Hmm... BGR... Lots of people use to come up to me till now, asking me when would I be having my first love. Guess if you wanna know, read up. Hahaha. Well, frankly, I'm not thinking of having one at all. From my first experience having a crush on someone( my Primary School friends should know this very well), it's okay, last quite long, about 3-4 yrs, but smth bad happen, which I would not blog about. After what happened, I just like you know, It's not the right time yet kinda thing... Hey, when I say bad thing it's not something to do with this touching2 thing k? You people dun think dirty... It's just something emotionally. Well, frankly, I'm not ready yet to be in this lovey dovey kinda stage cz, well im like only 15. There's still a long way to go, so why rush? Love will come naturally on its own. So, have I answered those question? Haha, come on mann people, stop suffocating me by asking me when will I be having my first love. I'll make a worldwide announcement if I have one k?
Getting Serious...
Ytd's training was like WTH?! I really feel like giving up with the cadets. I just don't know what i should do. Juli cnt be bothered no more and I felt guilty cz she tried all her best but there's no changes made. Me and the rest of the NCO's are a bit confused. What should we really do to make the cadets wake themselves up and to improve on the performance on SJAB. Are we too strict or are we too linient with them? I know as a senior I should not say this, but seriously, I just dun feel like giving a damn. SJAB day is coming soon and they are not taking the rehearsels seriously. I mean, yes, you can joke and laugh about, but get serious mann. I, argh... Dun noe what to do! Depends on the training tmr. Hopefully what Juli told them make them think and improve on themselves. If not... I dunnoe what's gonna happen to SJAB. We NCOs always sit down and reflect back on our mistakes and what we could do to improve on things, but it still doesn't help. Most of us felt like giving up, but we look on it on the other side, taking this as our challenge and breaking through the problems together. I really appreciate those senior NCOs who came down to check on us and giving us a hand. Maybe we made you guys pissed off and fed up, but when we look again, we appreciate all the help. Sometimes I think to myself... Are we even ready to take over? We did everything we can, but, things becomes worser. Especially the cadets. I just don't know what to say. I like being in SJAB and I don't want it to fall. Haix, we just need to see how it goes on tmr and we will decide on what to do... I just hope my dear cadets esp the Sec 2s will change for the better. Really. It would make a big difference to us NCOs. It's not asking and expecting to much, isn't it?
Life, full of unexpected things... Love,hurt,dissapointment,BGR,friends,family,fueds,hatred,betrayal,abuse,sadness,happiness,biasness,and etc... Thre's just a lot of things being set to us by God. Just accept it and go through all of it with patience and make all the good things as your guidance and all the bad things as your source of improving on yourself. Tht's what my granny always tell me, and it helps.
Well, guess i'll end here, shut the comp down and do all of my remaning homeworks. C ya people!
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Things needed to do;
-Prepare myself for SJAB speech
-Study for my madrasah's examination
-Work on the science project with classmates and Ms Zaleha
-Start fasting to re-pay those days that i missed last year
-Prepare to work like shit to prepare myself for EOY examinations
-Start on proposal for next year SJAB camp and some activities &
ET CETERA!!!
Omg! I can hardly breathe mann... FUHHHH...
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