Monday, May 25, 2009 @ 6:50 pm
Gosh, today was just so shocking and disappointing. I deserved all of this I guess. Too busy thinking on how to improve things ard me tht I kinda shove my studies aside. I felt like crying, screaming, but to no avail. No voice came out. Done some soul searching. No use crying. This is an awakening call for me bfr the prelims. Gosh, it's so hard to continue on. Maybe I'm stressing myself out too much, that's what others say. Well, probably it's true. I need a voice to say everything out. I can't take it. I just don't like it when ppl say, that I can do it. I just don't find it that I can. Another mistake, self-confidence. I know a lot of teachers are disappointed in me, in us. I shall prove it that I can do it, for my prelims. God, give me the strength please... Hear me out... Why does inflicting hurt in my self the best theraphy right now? I'm nuts,aren't I? Gosh, I need to learn how to share my probs. But, to who? I spend more time listening to thers, than listening to myself. Soul searching, here I come.