Sunday, August 09, 2009 @ 8:30 am
Well, basically the National Day celebrations at school was awesome. Ran around here and there. Bond with lots of friends. And, got myself exposed to an awesome movie, The Pursuit Of Happyness. Maybe, the movie has long time passed, but, I'm not a big fan of movies, so to me, it's new. :) Nowadays, it's so stupid. I just gotta feeling that once again, flunked my prelims. I do not know what is up with me. I do not have the heart to study. I mean, it's smth abnormal, like who the hell does that? I see my friends improving, I got damn jealous. No fact that I can't hide. I just need to really really really stand up and just study real hard and strive. I always say this to make myself better, but I realised, I'm not doing it. Whatever... I have to do it! Maybe for prelims, it's too late, but for 'O'level, it's not too late. Oh well... I'm not sure why I am blogging this junk down, but oh well, what the heck.
Things have really been bothering me lately. All the things that were happening around me. I can't close my eyes and ears to evth. It's life. Friends always ask me, why do I look so fine most of the time. No probs and yada yada yada. Well, the fact is, ther's a lot, but, I just can't open my gap to blurt it all out. Things are better kept secret. Past dark memories are hovering over me, but, I shall let it all lapse. It will always result in a pain. Whatever...
On the other hand, I can't stop shaking my head and smiling to myself, seeing the troubles everyone is facing in their teenage life. It's kind of hilarious, if you were to look at it all in a different way.
To bitch, just as I was about to gain my trust on you, you did that. Piss off.
I do not get it. What's the difference between a student that wants to help a teacher, a student is probably close to the teacher, and what's a teacher's pet? You know, people are just blind. Not literally, but they just don't have the bloody guts to admit things.
I need to make a holy confession. I can't keep this guilt in me anymore. Probably after Prelims has ended. I will do it. I shall apologise.
Khat.
